dreaming wide awake...

but as we speak, I'm in EVE Online waiting for a large-scale Corp mission!  I caved on 1 April and signed up for a trial account (which I will be converting to a regular account at the end) and am now a miner with The Zohar Project.  I have to say, that even though I don't know a lot as of  yet, it is a ton of fun-and I've met some people that I'm pretty sure will be great online friends.  So I'm looking forward to seeing where this all goes.  :)

1 April was also my anniversary-and no, I'm not joking.  Overall, I just felt really sad and disappointed though.  Kevin did send me a text message and some flowers, both of which were very nice and quite thoughtful of him.  I thought about calling him, but it just felt all shades of awkward, so I settled for just texting him back.  The card with the flowers said, Though I don't know where we're headed, I just want to let you know that I think about you every day.  Was quite sweet actually.  Definitely wasn't expecting that.  I also had counseling that day, so it was a bit odd of a day all around.

 Since I no longer hear from Tomas, I try to keep up with things through the sites that I know he frequents--as they're sites that I frequent as well.  Had to laugh a bit though yesterday-for two reasons.  Reason 1:  I checked Nathalie's facebook (because she posts more frequently than he does), only to notice a friend of hers had asked for her phone number....which she posted *on her wall*.  Not the brightest thing to do by far!  Reason 2:  when I checked Tomas' deviantart I noticed his avatar had been changed....to a picture of Edward from Twilight.  It was one of those animated ones that showed the pic and then it said "Team Edward" after.  I lol'd so hard.  I just couldn't help it!  I haven't watched Twilight at all, but the thought of Tomas being with "Team Edward" was just too funny.   :D

Found out yesterday that Anthony's mom might have to move back to Phoenix, and if so, he'll have to decide whether he'll stay in OKC or move back with her.  I know he misses his friends back there, but I know that people will miss him here as well--including me.  I'm trying not to get upset, because it's not like anything has been decided yet, so I'll just have to be patient and wait to see what happens. 

And now I'm off to EVE!


Quote of the Post:  Patience makes lighter, what sorrow may not heal.  -Horace

Tomas used to send me an 'album of the day' so that I would hear things that he liked or that I may like, but had never listened to.  Discovered some great stuff that way.  Have been missing it quite a bit lately, so I decided to go dl some stuff from the Ambient group that he started on Hexagon. 

Time for me to go find something new-though definitely not as much fun as when he would send me stuff. 

I miss him terribly, but it doesn't seem like he's going to come back...and that makes me incredibly sad.

Quote of the Post:  And the world spins madly on...

-The Weepies

I just got done chatting with a very good friend of mine that I haven't been able to chat with in awhile!  His internet has been off, and I really haven't heard much from him this whole year, so chatting with him, even for a few minutes was wonderful!  I'm so excited--cheshire cat smile, bounces, and everything!  I think my heart is still racing a bit as well-so all in all, an excellent start to the day.  :) 

His birthday was earlier this month and he finally got the gift that I had sent him.  I crocheted a *huge* blanket for him made out of one of my favorite colors of yarn-a lovely variegated blue-that fades from navy to sky.  I wish I had taken a picture of it before I sent it, but oh well.  He seemed to like it, though I do wish his webcam had been working so that I could actually have seen him open it.  I also sent him this night light, that when you turn it on, it shows the moon and stars on the ceiling!  Was too much fun-and as I know how much he loves watching the stars, I just couldn't resist!  :D

Hopefully we'll be able to chat more now that his internet it back up and running....I really have missed him so very much.  It was great to hear from him, and great to have him *hug* me as well.  It really is true, you don't know what you've got till it's gone.  Which makes you appreciate it all the more when you have it back. 

So welcome back Tomas! 

I'm really glad that you're back in my life again-friends like you, are quite wonderful and rare indeed, and I have missed you so very much. 

Hopefully absences like this, are very few and far between....

Life for me has been a bit crazy for the past five months or so, and as this is the first post in my journal here, I plan on going back and inserting a lot of back-dated entries so that I have it all here.  It's going to be a busy next couple of weeks I think!